i, i can change.

if only i could.
why is life so edgklhszLKDg all of a sudden?
this year isn't the best, it started off with the house fire which killed three members of my family, then this ongoing fight with my stepsister.
and now friend drama.
my god.

i wish i could just kill myself, but i know i can.
but it's gonna get better, and soon i won't think this way. so
everyday i wait.

i just want to truly smile again - i don't want to force anything.

here's to the stars in my life.

i had some winter goals.
failed them all.
i might as well check

1) work on short story
2) work on youtube videos
3) write some drabbles
4) clean my room
5) finish three boxes of tea
6) study science
7) finish proboards shit
8) Working on UTAU songs.
9) go to spirit quest and buy stuff
10) beat grief syndrome

ahaha, i'm such a horrible person. during winter break i just sat in my room and blasted music and play my ukulele. i watched anime, and japanese movies. yeup, i'm a loser. did i mention i played a lot of skyrim, well not as much as i wanted to.
semester one is almost over and i'm going to miss my current crush
why do i have to be in tenth grade?
i'm not going to be in the same school as him next semester
/sobs/

madoka whore.
trololol.
my ten winter break goals:


1) work on short story
2) work on youtube videos
3) write some drabbles
4) clean my room
5) finish three boxes of tea
6) study science
7) finish proboards shit
8) Working on UTAU songs.
9) go to spirit quest and buy stuff
10) beat grief syndrome

the words we speak mean nothing

why does life have to be so boring, why can't there be a bit of magic into our everyday lives? why do i have to suffer knowing that i'll never have my chance to save my own princess, or even the world. or is my head just stuck in a never ending fantasy land?

block order; dcba

d; drama.
boring as normal, finished my science homework. half-assed as normal. i don't have drama until the new year now.

c; japanese.
we watched japanese music videos, and made Christmas decorations. well, yeah, and then there is him, yes, the guy i used to like. and now everyone is liking him, and i'm stuck in the middle. japanese is pissing me off, or she is. i hate this, she pisses me off so much now.

lunch: boring boring boring.

b; pe
hip-hop in gym, boring shit. tomorrow is the last day though

a; science
almost fell asleep twice, ohwell. finished two labs. and i got my fish finally!

Am I hero?

Well this is me,
I'm back.
FC2 I misses ranting on you.

Aha, I'll post more starting winter break.
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Just a depressing girl with a depressing- yet sometimes amazing life.

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